Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Has My English Class changed Me?

  I can remember being in high school and socializing with practically everyone. I had a lot of friends and between them all there was hardly a dull moment. I was very outspoken and never shy, until it came to my writing. I was very good in English but when It came to having to write about something and share it with the class I would become so anxious that I would usually play sick and stay home. Back then we didn't really do any research outside of the school library and I felt like my writing skills were weak. Also, I guess I felt that no one else would really relate or care to hear what I had to say anyway.

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   I have really shocked myself at just how much I have been able to open up with my peers here at JSU, particularly in my English class. Before this class "BLOG" was not in my vocabulary. I didn't really read blogs and I certainly never saw myself writing any. I guess I still didn't really see the point. I didn't think anyone would read them and, to tell you the truth, didn't really want anyone to read them. I was scared. Now here I am writing a blog post every other week and I find myself looking forward to them and now hoping that someone is reading them. One of my favorite posts of mine is" Is College Good Enough" where I shared a little bit of my life's experiences and what urged me to come to college. Looking back at some of my older posts I see that in this one I am a lot less reserved and more open about myself. My other favorite post is" Why Did I Choose College? " where I opened up even a little more about who I am and what it important to me.


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  In the post" Share Or Die: But How Much Are We Willing To Share" I changed it up a bit. Instead of writing about me and my experiences I wrote about someone else's experience and how I felt about it. In this one I thought I did a nice job of keeping it interesting from the title, to the imagery, and also in my writing.
   I find myself enjoying to write now,  for the first time in my life. I am also enjoying reading my peers' posts. My least favorite class in high school has become my favorite class in college. I feel that I have really grown as a writer this semester and I plan to continue with my blog posts.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Why Did I Choose College?

    I was asked a while back-why college? The basic answer I gave was that I simply wanted to improve my financial situation. But the more I thought about it I realized that is not the only reason why I wanted to go to college.

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  I am a mother. I am always preaching to my children that their education is very important. I encourage them to always do their best, especially when it comes to their school work. I have taught them at an early age that college is the key to a happy and productive future. One day I was having a conversation with my six year old son who was in the first grade. I was telling him how important it is for him to make good grades and go to college and he said to me " that's why you did, right mom." That was a year ago and he has no idea just how much he had made me think. As a mother I try to teach my children everything, but sometimes they end up teaching me. I had been putting great emphasis on something I wasn't even willing to do myself and my son had called me out on it. I want to lead my children in the right direction and I can't do that from the couch in my living room. The best way to lead them is for me to do something with my life myself and hope they will later follow my lead.

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 I do admit my financial situation needs improvement. I have worked a lot of jobs over the years, but wouldn't consider many of them a good job or a job that was taking me places. I began my working journey
many years ago in fast food as many young adults do. I've since then worked in a dental lab, a quality control
lab, drove a forklift for a warehouse, and spent many years on an assembly line. Most of these were just not for me. I like to be challenged, and if I'm not I get bored. The one position I did somewhat enjoy will now require me to have a college degree, so yet another reason why I felt the need to go to college.

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 Even though I have worked a lot over the years I have also spent a lot of my time as a stay at home mom. I enjoy being a mother, but doing laundry and warming bottles is not very intellectually stimulating. It seemed like my only connection to the outside world was the television, everything from the news to the Oprah show.  There wasn't much need for algebra or a big vocabulary and as they say "if you don't use it you'll lose it!' I was beginning to feel ignorant, oblivious to the online world or anything else outside my own living room. I settled for a lot of low paying jobs partly because I couldn't make my mind up what I really wanted to do and partly because I was settling. I'm tired of settling.

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 Even though I am still not exactly sure what I want to do for the rest of my life I feel good about my decision to go to college. Luckily my family is supportive. My girlfriend does more than her share of helping with the children and household chores so that I am able to race out the door every day, rushing from class to class, and spending more time on campus than I do at my house. They say patients is a virtue, well my family is showing me a lot of that lately. Hopefully one day they will look back and respect me even more for this decision. While in college I hope to sharpen my basic skills in math and English and pick up some new skills as well. I hope college is a place where I can also express myself, share my opinions with others, and over all  grow as a person and become a more productive member of society.

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